what makes this sorta stupid is that i recognize the fact that my right hand is very valuable to me. i draw with it.
it is also my punching hand.

kind of helpless when i see there is a time for instant gratification due frustration.

so i wake up every morning and seek other viable options:
the dartboard?
chop wood?
drink?
kick something?

i just wanna do something very satisfying.
like killing a chipmunk. or something.